J2. It seemed like I'd never ever reach being j2 when I just entered vj in IP1, can't believe it's my fourth year here! And amazingly, I'm still not sick of vj just yet hehehe. I guess life so far has just been lessons>training>sleep>eat>repeat. Even though life's so hectic rn with trainings etc I srsly don't want season to come and end sigh. No matter how stupid it might sound, training is really what drives me to go to school most of the time when I wake up in the morning. Infinitely thankful for being in the best cca ever & meeting all my amazing teammates :')

Orientation just ended last week and I have got to say, I've got the most amazing OG & sub-OG I could ever ask for^^ Day 1 was pretty awkward as expected but Day 2 & 3 was simply gr8. Really enjoyed my time cheering/dancing/losing my voice w/ Ange & Dylan & all our precious freshies in T3 heehee :') We were surprisingly even one of the last few groups who left the airport during OG dinner on Friday night! Which reminds me, I really got taken aback from our 'first impressions' ~htht ~ , hm but I guess it was in a pleasant way! Hahaha. Can't wait to meet them all again for the suntec mass dance & maybe even an OG-outing before that^^


The pics aren't complete hope there'll be better ones soon!

Can't wait for OP to endddddd life's gna get eggsiting yeahman. Finally settled all the Cambodia stuff thank God, and srsly srsly looking forward to M'sia w/ the fb peeps ahhhhh. Ohyeah and my OG's T haha hope it'll be a cool name o.o Okaaaay that's all ;-)  I'm kinda in a good mood now, have a gr8 day/night ya'll! Hehehheh :)

Tbh I'm rly kinda enjoying life right now. There's really nothing much to worry about.. except PW that is. Reaaaally hope it goes well :S And I have got to rant on this- OUR OP IS ON THE LAST DAY WTF. Our class has the worst luck ever srsly. Sigh it's on 15th Nov, when practically everyone would be enjoying alr. Why is life so unfair lmao :'(((((

Ooooh oh and I'm superrr looking forward for school to end, life's gna be so exciting ;-) After enduring 3 last days of lessons aft OP.... PUT YOUR HANDS UP~~~~ hahahhahaha 2pm concert SO EXCITING AHH. And I'm so freaking glad that I managed to keep to the promise I made to myself. Made up a condition that I had to fulfill so that I would allow myself to go for the concert hehehe. :') And then after that it'll be rubbish school activities.. then Cambodia!!! Damn excited srsly, spent so much time planning the entire thing I really x10000 sincerely hope that it'll turn out fun and a gr8 experience :-) After that it's sports trip!!!!!!!!!! Super looking forward to the trip w/ the fb girls omg (although it's going to M'sia :S).. hmm but it's the company that matters right..?^^

And on a random note I've finished 3 dramas since promos ended. I can't explain why I love watching dramas so much, it just makes me all happy hehehheh. But then again, after watching all these shows with perfect guys.. I'll never be able to find a bf in my life anymore HAHA T_T Ohwelllllllllllll. What drama to watch next~ Have got an urge to go back to J-dramas should I watch Ouran?!

PLUS INFINITE WON AGAIN TODAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY :') Why are they so amazingggg sigh they rly deserved to win after so much hard work though I honestly thought they shld've won in BTD already. Ohwell! And wtf Mnet Awards is freaking hell confirmed on 29th Nov when I'll be in Cambodia. If Infinite is coming then, I swear I will cry and emo the entire day in Cambodia ARGH. Prayingggggggg they'll be busy w/ Japan debut srsly DON'T COME TO SINGAPORE.

So this explains my title- Fingers crossed for PW going well, for Cambodia trip to go well, for Infinite NOT TO COME, for trngs to go well, for the rest of 2011 to be awesome :')

It's been over 2 months since I've updated!!
(Note: It's gna be a superrr long post before I mia for idk how long again haha)
God, so much has happened.
I shall, uhm attempt to list some of the major ones

1. My class still isn't that fun (sadly)
2. Managed to scrape past into the fb team
3. Have stopped fangirling to some extent
4. Definitely not coping well with school work
5. It's gna be one tough week ahead

#1:
No, I don't hate my class, really. Haha, I guess I get along relatively well with (almost?) everyone. Esp the girls some of them are really nice ppl!! But it's just waaaay different from dear v12. I miss them so freaking bad :( I guess it does have something to do with having no fixed classroom? I mean it's impossible for the entire class to move around the school for lectures and 25 ppl to all sit tgt during breaks so yeah. So most of the time we obviously end up sitting/hanging out with the same few people (hint: clique). Haha hmm and Ms Lee doesn't seem too happy about this O: Poor clar the ct rep haha jy let's have a bonded s38 at the end of 2 yrs lmao!! Sigh I wish we could go back to IP. We hardly even see the Physics ppl around :'( And as for the guys hmmm.. sadly we've heard not very nice names abt 3 of the guys and us :( /seriously man T_T

#2:
Honestly this has been on my mind for God knows how long. Have been worrying since idk, Jan or Feb or even earlier whether I'd make it into the team. People who I've talked to would know how much this means to me haha. Hm, i guess I'm glad that I managed to scrape past into line 4, but somewhere deep down I know that I'm really unsatisfied and disappointed. But from where I am now, I guess there's no use welling over things that can't be changed anymore. I know you guys won't read this but to Tricia, Belly, Athena, Chels: let's do our best and don't give up. I love you guys!♥

#3:
I am amazed at myself seriously. I have been fangirling since like, April 2009 (not counting the Kat-Tun/News craze) hahaha I can't believe I actually stopped. /pats shoulder. Hahaha Joey Tam is listening to english songs omg HAHA. Okay I still listen to kpop but I don't even follow any news/dl new songs/perfs anymore!! I guess partially it's cos Kibum+Xander left ukiss. And they happen to be my fav members in my fav band wtf T_T. So yeh let's see how long this 'break' will last! LOL :)

#4 & #5:
This is realllyyyyyy bad hahaha. I just tend to take fb as an excuse as being too tired/ too busy to do work and I'm actually aware of it. Time to wake up Joey :( But omg srsly, everytime I get back aft trng then have dinner + bathe it'd be idk, 10+/11? Can you imagine doing differentiation with aching limbs and half closing eyes?! Hahahaha. But really, no more slacking as soon as season's over. Imma keep this promise to myself :) (hopefully :/)

And this week is going to be... woah.  Mon: No late start + Jap in the evening; Trng on Tues, Wed, Fri, Sat; Musicfest on Thursday(woohoo!). Kinda annoyed at having to go to Jap both today and tmr urgh :( Plus it's gna be a mock test which I definitely am going to fail wtf, total waste of time hmm. I rly don't mind the trngs, in fact, they're what I've been looking forward to when I go to school on trng days LOL! Being physically tired and worn out > falling asleep in lectures any day :) Plus, this is really our last chance to learn and practice whatever we can. 7 days to gooooo. Ooh and mfest on Thurs heehee I'm so excited!! Gonna go for it with the fb girls & it's gna be so cool 'cos there're quite a few ppl that I know who are gna be performing o: 

Hm so yeah that's about it!
Let's wait and see when's the next time I'll post haha!!

Back from obs in one piece! :)
Hahaha, it'd be an understatement to say it was 'good'. It was waaaaaaaay beyond awesome. Seriously, it was the best camp I've been to in my life I think? Haha. Really a pity that Jolene, Clar, Marie and the rest of the other 12 girls/guys couldn't make it :/ I guess partially it was 'cos of luck since I had a really awesome group + awesome instructor Elton :)

People who talked to me before I went for obs would know how much I was dreading it lah. Like worrying about becoming tan, getting insect bites, no comfy bed, no phone, no comp, etcetc. So yeah, at first when we were still at the jetty and stuff I had the totally SIAN mood. Lucky Nasrul was somehow awake at like 6 and kept me company by msging all the way 'till we reached Ubin! Thanks man, really! :) (There was actually full Singtel reception @ Ubin, but we had to surrender phones and stuff the moment we got there so yeah hmm) So we uhm, reached there and started activities in our group, and our watch was called Cook! Haha. Shall make someone scan the group pic so I can post it asap ;)

My group had me, Sean, Miley, Nat, Sihui, Ramesh, Laisum, MAMA Linh (shall explain later hehe), Gerald, Isaiah (sp?), Keeran, Jinyang, Yundi, Andrew, Nicole (but she left on like the 2nd day 'ços she hurt her back D:).

Argh I'm lazy to talk about every single thing but shall just mention/list some rly memorable stuff ^^

Day 1- Kayaking (water confidence) > Jetty Jump > Kayaking again (paddling)
Hm, I was looking forward to kayaking the most in obs since I haven't tried it in my life, so I was pretty :D that it was the first activity we were doing once we reached there haha. But we all had to take turns capsizing argh. I went with Sean & Miley, so we were like rocking left right left right to capsize it but idk, it's some sort of a reflex for me to scream at minor stuff so uhm yeah, I opened my mouth to scream just as we were hitting the water so I got to taste how salty sea water was. :/ Jetty jump was rly goooooooooood, I think it was one of the best activities we did there hahaha. Plus we did it during the low tide so even Elton said that was the longest jump he had, like the longest time to fall before reaching the water o: Tbh, everyone would freak out when you stand at the edge of that wooden plank, just that some just don't show it I guess. But the moment you tell yourself you can do it and take that one step off.. it felt great (Y) HAHA idek wth I'm talking about now omg. It was just srsly fun, idek how to explain that feeling when you fall through the air, wish I could do it another time rn haha!!

Day 2- Kayaking ~expedition~
Kayaked with Ramesh & Sihui on that day, so glad I made that right choice tsk ;) They're the best kayaking buddies ever I swear HAHA (I'm saying this 'cos I know they'd never read this lolol! Our awesome floorballers' kayak was supposed to be the 'sweeper' while everyone from Cook + Dagama (another watch) travelled tgt in the expedition to the other end of Ubin haha. So yeah our job was to uhm, keep everyone from lagging behind. In the beginning I sat at the middle and paddled quite a bit hm, they insisted there was no diff if I didn't even paddle wth! :( Then halfway there was this break 'cos we had to get off our kayaks and cross a road, so we decided to have a changeover and I ended up sitting behind Sihui with Ramesh at the front of the kayak. I swear it was awesome LOLOL, for this entire 2nd half of the journey, Sihui and I just leaned back in the best and most comfortable position a person can in a kayak and didn't even paddle AT ALL. Ramesh solo-ed the entire way and I've got to say he was good :) The journey was rly rly hilarious and awesome I think I was dying from laughing half the way. The both of them are rly (one of the) most retarded guys I've met in my life :') Like for eg we'd have to row past some low lying branches, so Ramesh would yell like 'MATRIXXXXXXX~', then we'd all lie down in a ~domino~ effect kind of thing and totally avoid the branches lmao. There was also 'LEPAK MACHINE READY~', and 'MAKAN TIME~~'. Really great memories thanks guys haha! :')

Ohoh & when we finally reached the campsite that we had to navigate our own way to, we all got to jump into this really gorgeous freshwater quarry. Only our 2 watches Cook & Da Gama got to do that 'cos we kayaked there so we were like covered in sea water. 2 other watches hiked there and the rest kayaked to Pasir Ris (we all had diff. itineries I guess!) We spent almost an hour just soaking and chillaxing in the nice and cool water after ignoring the random queries of 'are there piranhas?' or 'omg maybe got Loch Ness here!' It really felt damn awesome, + there was also tj, rj & bran since they were in Da Gama! :)

Day 3- Hiking ~expedition~ > Height elements
The hike back to our initial campsite was reallyyyyyy crazy. Apparently we walked for roughly 4h and somehow covered 10km? Idk it didn't feel like 10km to me hahaha but my shoulders rly died 'cos all of us had to carry this slightly less than 10kg backpacks w/ our day's worth of clothes/toiletries/shoes + lifevest + poncho. Oh and we found out that the previous groups who did the opposite (hike to campsite & kayak back), merely hiked from campsite to campsite. And 'cos there was 'no kick', so they decided to add checkpoints for our groups ;_; One of them was to go to the highest point in Ubin, which was this 65m tall hill haha. It was alrightttt I guess, it was rly nothing compared to that hike up Mt Gunung (sp?) we had in ip1 @ Bintan haha! And when we reached the top the view was woahhhhhhh. Took a picture there w/ Elton's camera haha but idk what happened to it hm. So yeah we went past the other 2 checkpoints (German Girl Shrine & some bicycle rental place) and made it to our campsite @ Camp 2 :) Oh yeah and we did random vj cheers along the way LOL! I guess it somehow made us a tiny bit more motivated hahah!!

Height elements was pretty awesome tooooooooo hahaha! I did it twice tho, the first time with Linh. We attempted the easier one where the rungs of the huge ladder thingy was closer together but we died at the 2nd last one and decided to go down D: After that everyone took turns and everyone who did managed to reach the top hahah so I went again, this time with Nat. My dear son haha I'm so proud of him aw, I had to step on him to climb each rung so yeah oops sorry :/ At first I really thought I couldn't do it, I mean like, Nat is so small compared to the other guys and I've already failed once. So when we were at the 2nd rung I rly wanted to give up and stop wasting everyone's time o: Somehow we continued and yno the higher you get, the less afraid you get of the height (for me at least hahaha!) It was more like, argh are we there yet?! So eventually we made it like the rest to the highest rung haha, I swear it felt great sitting on that log and hearing ppl cheer to the fact that we did it :)

Oh yeah and since it was the last night we had this uhm, special ~feast~ with more canned food/veggie. And we also had to prepare this skit about some retarded sailor and a girl and her fiance etc. Lazy to explain argh I wish we could get hold of that video! It's prob with Elton/ the other instructors hahah. Sihui was rly epic as usual lmao he acted the girl (obviously), and looked surprisingly good with my pink hairband ;) 

Day 4- Trust dive > random slacking around > heading back
Hm we didn't do much on the last day haha. Except for like this one last activity where the entire group holds this uhm... groundsheet-like thingy with handles at the side. We hold it in such a way it looks like a.. stretcher I guess? Then one person from the group at a time takes turns to dive onto the 'stretcher' from an elevated platform while hitting a bell before landing. Does that make sense? Hahaha ohwell that was pretty fun I guess! :) 

Other random stuff~
Shared the tent with Miley Laisum & Mama Linh (duh, since we were the only girls in the group). Haha they're rly awesome tent mates lor seriously. Except on the last night Mama Linh and I had a mini tug of war throughout the night lmao! It was rly retarded lah. we had 3 sleeping bags, so we decided to open up 2 for all 4 of us to share, then use the last one as a blanket. Since Linh & I were on the 2 ends we obviously had to do a lot of pulling. I'd randomly wake up from the cold and reach out to yank the blanket, and when I finally got it after a round of tugging and go back sleep, I'll wake up again to find it gone then the cycle would repeat lmao!!!

Oh and as for food, we were given this gigantic container of rations filled with bread+biscuits that was supposed to last our 4 days of breakfast & lunch. Then there'd be seperate maggi mee/canned food each night for dinner that we have to cook ourselves. So that's where Mama Linh comes in heheh, I swear she knows every single thing in the world. She'd own everyone at opening the cans, and she'd know what and how to cook the foods, and everything else idek. Throughout the camp whenever we had troubles or anything, Mama Linh knows the solution LOL! So yeah laisum & I started calling her Mama Linh hahaha!!

And of course I'm thankful for the awesome ppl who were there with me at the camp heheh. I wna say a huge thanks to Miley heh she'd always wait for me at the toilet and stuff, and yeah I think I hanged out a lot with her at the camp! :) & Sean of course! /waves HI aren't you touched ;) Thanks for idk, hanging around with me during the camp? Tbh I don't exactly know/rmb what you did oops, hahaha but srsly the camp would've been rlyyyy diff without you in the group, bff! (awwwww) Nat too, my awesome sonnnn and of course SIhui & Ramesh haha aiyah everyone was great lah, rly wna say thanks to everyone in Cook :')

Argh I don't think I can ever finish talking about the interesting/awesome parts of the camp hahaha I can't believe I actually want to go back and have obs all over again o.o!! I guess that marks the end of the fun and awesome retarded epic stuff we can do before all of us ~officially~ become j1s during jco this coming Thurs hmm. And this post has gotten way longer than I expected it to be oops. Need to get my hands on the pics/vids argh. Shall update once I get them hahaha :)

On another note......... I rly thought I'd gotten over it. Idk how to explain how good I felt at obs. Maybe I was too preoccupied with the awesome activities/worrying over the tents and insects etc that I didn't even stop for a second to think of you. But the moment I got back it seemed like I was back to square 1, srsly wailt I'm so fucking annoyed already, really. I guess I can only let time heal this wound. I really really really never thought you could hurt me this bad. I'm such a fool for believing you. I'm such a stupid fool for loving you.

 Hi. It's 2011~
Doesn't feel like a new year to me haha, everything's just... the same. 

The past week or 2 has been total rubbish, I don't even know what the hell I was doing. Went out pretty much everyday and spent money like crazy. And then the moment I got home I just watched my dramas until I decided I was tired enough to go to bed. I just tried keeping myself busy busy busy so that I don't even have time to think about stuff. But then in the end when it comes to the time right before you sleep, you know when you lie on your bed but you're not asleep yet, all the stuff just flood your mind and I end up sleeping an hour or two later. I'm tired of all this already, really. I'm giving up and I'm not gna try anymore.

And for the record, I kinda want school to start quickly. That'll keep me busy enough hmm. Waking at 6+ and staying in school probably the entire day since there're trngs 4 times a week & in the evening! Omg haha I will have officially no life, bye to going out after school ;_;.

Quick updates: Getting braces on fri omg T_T, working for the last time on sat, school starting on mon zz. 
I shall update when school starts or if smth interesting happens, LOL! 

Life has been pretty normal. I have been going to all my trngs :') Hahaha! Watched Narnia w/ clar & chunnie on Wed~ it was okayokay for me I guess. Since I didn't watch the sequels I was pretty ?? half the time, lol! And 3d rly gets on my nerves.. stupid heavy specs D:! And that marks my 4th movie this holiday, hahaha. Hmm, any nice new movies? ;) ;)

Hm don't rmb what I did on thurs.. trng then prob went home..? Such a good girl LOL! Ahyes friday managed to crawl out of bed at 645 to go for trng hahaha. It was the crazycrazy trng.. Mr loke wanted to kill us ;_; Anddd.. time to improve on stamina :/ :/ All of us died la haha. Bathed and went to eat with some of the fb girls @ parkway for the millionth time aft trng~ :) Worked aft that hahaha i rmb it was good yay~ 1-1 and lucky partnered Angelique for like the..... idk 3rd/4th time haha :D :D

OHOH sat went to support sam @ her band concert~ Met the rest for dinner at pp before that. Somehow we managed to meet dawei & benghwee who were working at Marks & Spencers there too! Hahaha, and also met Yanzhou aft that to pass his belated b'day present! Met a lot of ppl that day hmm, Parkway is an awesome place man LOL! Ooh and we bought an awesome Sam-height sunflower for Sam~

Helpppp jlpt is in 2 days LOL I'm dead o.o! I haven't exactly studied for it, except maybe a few random lessons + polite forms haha. OH and watching Liar Game wth haha. I kept convincing myself that it helps for my listening since that dealer guy in the show kept speaking in polite form, sonkeigo to be exact hehheh. So yeaaaa, ep 5 refuses to load now so I'm updating :x On another note, Toda Erika is so gorgeous *_*!! I used to insist she wasn't thaaat pretty but then watching Liar Game totally got me realising her.. beauty? LOL! The other day I was watching it then I told jolene on msn 'I WANT TO BE PRETTY. LIKE TODA ERIKA ;_;' She's really really pretty ~~~ *_*

Yesterday was pretty good! Met Sarah for lunch + study jap @ city hall :) I'm an awesome friend, I ate pepper lunch when Sarah was dying of sore throat and had to resort to sad fish soup. HAHA. Studying was.... going through mistakes then.. /gives up. All I can say the coffee was good :) Ooh nicenice grey shirt Jolene got for me from cambodia. Love that colour~ ;D >>>>


Went to work aft that haha met Angshuang @ city hall ;) Urgh slept like 2-8 I'm tired like crap now :( Shall finish that episode and reunite with my dear bed. Byebye :)

Today has been a pretty bad day :( Something got into me and I just slacked around in my room packing stuff, writing stuff, smsing? Cannot rmb, just doing random stuff and slept at 3 :/ Sooo.. ended up waking up at 12. Great, I need to stop doing thisss half my day just disappears like that urgh. OH and dear Angelique called at like 8+ hahaha. I don't even remember what I said in that half-asleep state but according to her, I just went like 'I WANT TO SLEEEEEEEEEEP' then she got a shock and hanged up hahahahahaha. /slaps self

Ohwell, I managed to study a bit of Jap today tho. Haha, I was looking at my phone calendar today and got the shock of my life when I realised jlpt is like in less than 2 weeks? Okay it's 11 days, I'm so screwed ;_; I'm like guessing through half the questions in the homework each time lah :( 

Hm okay I've got nothing to say already hahaha. Quite excited for tmr tho, shopping with Jolene :) :) :) But I guess it has to be window shopping sigh. I've been spending money like crazy this past week! Watched hp during weekend, ate out almost every other day, bought random stuff... /guilty. And yesterdayy besttt went Queensway with Clar! Bought shoes (Y) shorts and socks heheh :D:D Spent more than 100$ in those few hours alone ;_; Ahyes then working after shopping ~  :) /prays for good partner x34239847934

G'night ppl :)

Woke up @ 650 today can't believe it. Hahaha, to go for my job attachment thingo. Didn't meet Jolene the entire day! T_T The transportation sucks like aoirjoairjm, change train 2 times + walk quite far (mentally prepare for fb pt?) Urgh I was super bored on the way there and back. hahaha.



This is cool enough ^_^ LOL Haha, shall talk more about the job attachment after the week ends :)

Ah yes Sarah & I finally opened an lj to sell out j-mags/je singles etc hahaha. I think it's damn prettyyyyyyyyyyyy and looks professional manz :D hahaha. Hopefully can sell of at least one or two to fund our for our dearest concerts T_T

cheesechicken@lj <-- GOGOGOGO

& Is this cool or what. Hahaha, yay I can type hangul now without spammng every key to look for the right stroke. hehheh. 유키스 짱~ ^_^